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| Today marks the end of my second week in Medicine.
The school life is exactly what I expected: Mon - Fri, 8 lessons per day?
Of course this is not true, to me, Wednesday is also known as "Happy Wednesday", because I only have 4 lessons, which will probably not be graded.
Well, I seldom sleep more than 6 hrs a day now, not because I am too hardworking, but because I have to.
How can one imagine that we have to finish the anatomy of the thorax (From the neck down to the diaphragm, that includes the lungs and the heart), also including the common diseases, its structure and function in two days times?
Frankly speaking, I did feel very stressful in the first two days, but now the feeling is all gone.
My university life is almost the same as it did one year ago, except that I have to revise for two more hours every single day.
But I have to mention one thing that is unexpected - I meet a lot of playful people in Medicine.
對不起我冷落了妳。
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| When I arrived at home tonight, I checked my email and something very unfortunate happened.
One of the CU student who would be going for an exchange next year turn down our deal which was still under negotiation two days ago without notifying me at all.
I spent one day searching for the information about that houses and I sent about twenty emails to my buddy, Vincent and to the OAL and to the CUBA and to the University of Michigan and to the housing agent. Everything was perfectly done. BUT you turned down the deal all in a sudden.
I am really annoyed and I will never deal with any NDS again.
(I know perfectly that this is an informal fallacy, in fact, it's called hasty generalization that I unreasonably assumed that NDS is meant to be so shitty) But I just couldn't help but saying shit to this Shanghai lady. Everybody has got a problem in looking for the house overseas, that's true, but you don't have to send email to so many people, saying how urgent you need a house AND YOU TURNED THE DEAL DOWN. And WORST OF ALL, you weren't PREPARE TO TELL ME until I sent you an email.
Now, what's the results? You got the house, you got the special offer and I spent my time and effort on knowing something that I would not have to know. Come on, this is NOT your playground!
I swear. I swear that I will never ever ever make a deal with a NDS. A deal is a deal. To them, a deal is just something that benefits them. That's it. That's the NDS's way of making a deal.
Okay, enough grumble, time to bed.
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| The result of the hostel application was announced yesterday.
Unfortunately, I was not allocated any rooms in the coming semester
though I was a committee member of NAMES. According to the staff, I
have 37 points which is one point lower than the minimum requirement. I
was totally disappointed.
For the one year in the university, I experienced many things that I
didn't have in the secondary school. However, NONE OF WHICH is provided
by my own college. No scholarship, No exchange and this year, even
worse, I don't even have a hostel.
Why can't CU allocate the resources to different colleges more
effectively so that each student can enjoy the same benefits
irrespective of the college that one belongs to ?
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| It is almost the end of the first year of university life. My 20th Birthday has just passed. What does it signify? It means that my life has already passed 1/5, or miserably, 1/4.
Life is not easy. I would say that I was living in a bless throughout the years. I was seldom a champion, in the match, in my study and many things else. I have always wanted to win, to excel in every areas. However, I was never perfect. Although I spared no efforts in achieving the best, I didn’t come the first. So what? I got the second, I should be thankful for that.
So far, I asked myself what have I achieved throughout the 20 years?. A year ago, I would say NOTHING but a certificate that can get you to a degree which you don’t like THE BEST. But now I could say that I got anything I wanted. Several months ago, I was so unhappy about getting into a major that thousands of people would die for. I blamed this, I blamed that, I blamed myself, I blamed that Chinese Culture paper that couldn’t get me a grade better so that I could be a doctor.
My darkest time was in the secondary six and secondary seven. I broke up with my first date and I always blamed myself for being not good. I felt regretful for that. I lost my confidence in loving others, because I always think that I don’t know how to love. Afterall, I don’t know how to manage time efficiently, I was too selfish and I always ranked my studies the first. When people asked me why do I love winning so much, my answer was simple. “I just like it.” Worse still, I was having bad relationships with my friend, who got better CE results than me. I thought I deserved more than that. The two years of high school life was a mess to me, I kept studying all day long, spending the rest of time envying others. I spent all of my efforts and the remaining confidence, for studying,studying and studying.
Although it was this year, I met God. However, he didn’t seem to cure my grievance deep down inside my heart. I did believe in him wholeheartedly, but what eventually turned out to be was something that was surely AGAINST his will. Yes, I couldn’t believe what the hell would I be doing today if I didn’t fortunately get 2As in HKAL, would I be ending up crying everyday or simply transforming into an anti-social person who eventually is going to be an alcoholic in the his late forties? Thankfully, this is not true.
My first year of university life was nice, I met so many great friends, the best ones I’ve ever met. My examination results were brilliant. Everything seems to be perfect. However, I was living in the illusion. I lived in an atmosphere that isolates money and fame from the rest of everything. All I want is work hard, make much money and be BIG. But at this time, you came into my life. You had always been in my life, I knew that, I just didn’t admit that. At least, I knew that two years ago. However, I’ve always been thinking about something unrealistic, I judge love not by feeling but by criteria. That’s not love at all, love shouldn’t be like that. It’s you who make me shine again.
In the past, I thought it would be stupid to say forever in this ever-changing world. But it’s just stupid to think this way. At least, I would rather be a stupid guy this time.
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